ageing

ageing.... growing up.... do u actually feel more as u age... or is it vice versa.... sometimes i realli wonder if i am really emotionally detached... as i alwaz tot i m... and that's wat some of my frens tell mi.... was watching a korean drama over the weekend and saw how filled with emotions the characters are.... it might be a show.... but in reality, i believe there are ppl who are realli like that.... ppl who do feel deeply for things, for the people ard them, for watever that's happening ard them.... but somehow i feel that i've stopped having such emotions..... i m trying to recall when's the last time i realli feel such strongly..... i m not saying i dun feel happie or sad etc.... but somehow, my emotions are not so strong..... perhaps i m realli "cold-blooded"?? i realli dunno... or mebbe it's jus age... as u age, u see more things.... and probably that's the reason why u get immune to stories ppl tell u, stories that's happening in ur life.... it's sad.... a sad realisation that i dun feel animore.... i complain when i have to work long hours.... but when i can knock off early, i suddenli feel lost..... yup, i can alwaz hang out with frens, go shopping, go for early dinner and catch a movie.... but somehow, it's jus processes that i m going thru... it feels very different from memories... memories that i will hold on to.... experiences that i will remember.... it seems like those good old days in school which will have memories and experiences for mi to hold on to..... the last nice memory that i have was probably the phuket trip... thanks for the happy memories... and sorrie......