headaches

alwaz getting headaches nowadaes... my head feels like bursting... i jus wanna lie down and not do anything... there's tonnes of things waiting for mi to clear... but i realli jus dun feel like doing anything... back to those days when i would take medicine to feel drowsy n sleep.... i m wasting my life away.... i hate wat i m doing to myself... why m i so emo!!!!! i need to get out of this viscious cycle.... jus walk away from everything n jus be like b4..... i cant do it... i dunno why.... i m tired.... miss my carefree days... everything i m today is jus a result of my choice.... the path u have chosen in the past will lead u to where u are today... i hope u are happier now... i do wonder how things would have turned out if i made the choice to stay back then....

nostalgic~~

ppl do get more nostalgic as they age... thanks for reading my blog... thanks for being around for mi all these years... things ard mi, people ard mi... all these which i didnt appreciate when i was younger.... back in those good old days when i take things and people for granted... i realised that i m not the only one who likes to write when i m feeling emo... i dun like feeling emo... i miss the old mi... the old mi who doesnt feel emo that often... it's age i believe... or mebbe it's simply cos i have changed... i simply wish i could turn back times... back to the old schooling days when i dont have to bother about anything in the world... tends to feel emotional so easily nowadaes... jus heard from my favourite jnr that she has decided to resign... or rather she has already resigned... suddenly felt so sad... firstly, i dun deny she was of such a great help that i will definitely work much harder without her around... but secondly, i realli dun like the feeling of ppl ard mi leaving... but in the environment that i work in, it's inevitable that ppl come n go... although i have left sg as well... but it feels different when u r the one staying put at the same spot n it's u who's being left behind.... sometimes i realli dunno what i m doing... my tots are so random... sometimes jus wanna work somewhr in which nobody leaves the company... everything is the same day in day out.... symptoms of ageing??? when u dun wanna change in ur life.... i dun like being swayed my emotions... i like to be free from them all... emotional detachment... something that everyone else doesnt believe in... but it's sth that i've alwaz wanted to be... roller coaster feelings is what i alwaz experience nowadaes.. .but it's precisely what i dun need... and wat i dun want....