A special fren

To a very special fren... a fren whom i know since 20.... that's a long long time ago..... still remember the good old days... the days when i only had 100 free sms n being a poor student i selectively replied msges.... sorrie for those days when i m "dao" n never reply smses... thank you for being so patient with me.... thank you for being there for me.... thank you for all the nice surprises.... all these years.... u have been with mi thru ups n downs.... alwaz ever ready to lend me ur listening ears.... from "ABC" days to present..... that's a long long time.... a very special frenship we shared.... am happy for u today... though it felt a bit strange... wishing u happiness =)

headaches

alwaz getting headaches nowadaes... my head feels like bursting... i jus wanna lie down and not do anything... there's tonnes of things waiting for mi to clear... but i realli jus dun feel like doing anything... back to those days when i would take medicine to feel drowsy n sleep.... i m wasting my life away.... i hate wat i m doing to myself... why m i so emo!!!!! i need to get out of this viscious cycle.... jus walk away from everything n jus be like b4..... i cant do it... i dunno why.... i m tired.... miss my carefree days... everything i m today is jus a result of my choice.... the path u have chosen in the past will lead u to where u are today... i hope u are happier now... i do wonder how things would have turned out if i made the choice to stay back then....

nostalgic~~

ppl do get more nostalgic as they age... thanks for reading my blog... thanks for being around for mi all these years... things ard mi, people ard mi... all these which i didnt appreciate when i was younger.... back in those good old days when i take things and people for granted... i realised that i m not the only one who likes to write when i m feeling emo... i dun like feeling emo... i miss the old mi... the old mi who doesnt feel emo that often... it's age i believe... or mebbe it's simply cos i have changed... i simply wish i could turn back times... back to the old schooling days when i dont have to bother about anything in the world... tends to feel emotional so easily nowadaes... jus heard from my favourite jnr that she has decided to resign... or rather she has already resigned... suddenly felt so sad... firstly, i dun deny she was of such a great help that i will definitely work much harder without her around... but secondly, i realli dun like the feeling of ppl ard mi leaving... but in the environment that i work in, it's inevitable that ppl come n go... although i have left sg as well... but it feels different when u r the one staying put at the same spot n it's u who's being left behind.... sometimes i realli dunno what i m doing... my tots are so random... sometimes jus wanna work somewhr in which nobody leaves the company... everything is the same day in day out.... symptoms of ageing??? when u dun wanna change in ur life.... i dun like being swayed my emotions... i like to be free from them all... emotional detachment... something that everyone else doesnt believe in... but it's sth that i've alwaz wanted to be... roller coaster feelings is what i alwaz experience nowadaes.. .but it's precisely what i dun need... and wat i dun want....

sorrie

if u are still reading my blog, i m sorrie....

krabi day 3 - island safari

day 3 was pretty relaxing as well... i didnt get a chance to do my bungee jump again!!! anw day 3 was spent rafting and elephant riding at island safari....

our pix taken after the rafting... no chance to take pix during rafting...

our elephant riding... the tour guide helped us to take a series of pix and charged us $200THB!!! but the thing is that out of 20 pix he took, mebbe only 4 or 5 of them are clear... see below for the "blur" pix....

and besides elephant riding, they have ox-cart as well... and similarly the "driver" offered to take pix for us... this time round, being smarter, we kindly rejected his offer.... no free lunches in the world!!!

and after the rides, there were some elephant shows...

us with the baby elephant... somehow i jus like elephants.... my fav cartoon would be dumbo.... can relate to the big flappy ears?!?!

krabi day 2 - island hopping

day 2 was for island hopping around the HONG island... given that it's less crowded and less touristy, it feels like a private jet bringing us ard....

view from the jet boat...

as usual, the star jump pix at beaches is a must....

i like this shot a lot...

krabi day 2 - rock climbing

our first activity for the trip was rock climbing... making our way to the jetty to take the long tail boat to railay beach for rock climbing... here's our "tour guide" - the rock climbing expert.... he's the one carrying all our equipment as well.... see the guy loaded with so many bags... that's him with the full equipment for the 5 "participants".....

here's our mode of transport to railay beach...

the long tail of the boat..... that's how it got its name.....

at railay beach... we must make our way thru the slippery, muddy beach cos it's low tide when we arrive....

finally it's the start of the activity... listening attentively to instructions....gin looks confused though....

mi posing with the guide.....
my turn to climb....

slowly making my way up.....

finally at the TOPPPPPP!!!!! it was hard work!!!!

slowly abseiling down..... this is the most relax and enjoyable part.....

exhausated after the climb... i conquered three 10m wall and one 20m wall....=)

n besides the photos and the aching muscles, here's wat we've got as "souvenirs" from the rock-climbing.... ouch ouch!!

after an exhausting day of being "spider women", it's time to chill and relax.... we went to this mexican pub for the WORLD CUP FINALS - holland vs spain....

n my prediction was right once again!!!! SPAIN won.... n i won this shirt from "guessing the winning team" lucky draw from the pub.... wohoooo!!!!
see the before and after.... the whole big group of holland fans in the pub.... see the same pix below after the match ended....

and this marks the end of our long day...

Krabi - 10 July 2010 to 14 july 2010

after 9 months of hard work, it's finally my turn to go on leave.... was looking forward to a break which i desperately need.... so here's some photos of the trip....

entering the boarding gates with slpy eyes!!! the flight's at 640AM... so woke up at 4plus with barely 2 hours of slp.....cant wait to slp on the plane...

our tiger flight to krabi.... i like this pix!!

on our way to the hotel....

presenting PAKASAI.... our hotel for the 4 nights.....

the lobby while waiting for check-in....

our hotel room with the kinkish shower facilities.... if u look carefully, u will realise there is no door to the washroom... see the translucent shower on the top left side of the pix... that's the shower... n dunno whether they are cutting cost or wat, the shower and toilet shares 1 door!!! so either u shower or u use toilet.... funnie design right??? and check out the outdoor bathtub in the pix below....

the sceneries along ao nang beach.....

ageing

ageing.... growing up.... do u actually feel more as u age... or is it vice versa.... sometimes i realli wonder if i am really emotionally detached... as i alwaz tot i m... and that's wat some of my frens tell mi.... was watching a korean drama over the weekend and saw how filled with emotions the characters are.... it might be a show.... but in reality, i believe there are ppl who are realli like that.... ppl who do feel deeply for things, for the people ard them, for watever that's happening ard them.... but somehow i feel that i've stopped having such emotions..... i m trying to recall when's the last time i realli feel such strongly..... i m not saying i dun feel happie or sad etc.... but somehow, my emotions are not so strong..... perhaps i m realli "cold-blooded"?? i realli dunno... or mebbe it's jus age... as u age, u see more things.... and probably that's the reason why u get immune to stories ppl tell u, stories that's happening in ur life.... it's sad.... a sad realisation that i dun feel animore.... i complain when i have to work long hours.... but when i can knock off early, i suddenli feel lost..... yup, i can alwaz hang out with frens, go shopping, go for early dinner and catch a movie.... but somehow, it's jus processes that i m going thru... it feels very different from memories... memories that i will hold on to.... experiences that i will remember.... it seems like those good old days in school which will have memories and experiences for mi to hold on to..... the last nice memory that i have was probably the phuket trip... thanks for the happy memories... and sorrie......

Missing

i miss the days in australia... miss the days where i used to be more carefree... miss the days where i dont have any headaches.... miss the days where i have roadtrip photos to post on my blog.... but being back for only half a year, it's like a total change in personality n lifestyle... wkends were spent either in office or at home... n i feel so tired all the times... once, a fren asked mi what do i do during wkends or wat's my hobbies... den it suddenli struck mi that my life is so monotonous.... if i m not wkg on wkends, i would be slping in.... dun even have the mood to go out with frens and enjoy the wkend..... dunno why oso... but i used to think that i have to go out everi wkend.... hated to stay at home during wkends in the past.... mebbe it's age... mebbe it's work.... mebbe i m tired of everithing.... i cant seem to have the mood to go out animore... jus wish i could lie down and slp forever... dun wanna think abt anithing... dun wanna be with anione.... jus give mi a small corner n i'll be happie staying there.... i wonder why the drastic change.... used to love gg out n hanging out till late with frens.... now i jus wish to stay in bed n read my novels.... never expect myself to be such a homely person... i guess i have changed... wat caused the change? probabli a lot of factors.... but i jus feel so tired... wish things were simplier... wish i was back in aussie.... but even back in aussie, sometimes i will feel tempermental..... so mebbe it's age?? i dunno... i jus noe i need a break.... a break from everithing n everione.... decisions u make in life 5 years ago will ome back to haunt u 5 years later.... sometimes i wish i could turn back time n make a chance to choose again.... things tt i didnt appreciate back then.... now i wonder how things will be like if i took a different route back then.... but it's too late now.... there's no turning point, so i have to move on..... looking back n feeling nostalgic will only make things worst..... u onli get to live once.... so jus give things a go.... if u think too much, u will jus regret it in future..... i m sorry..... i m tired....